River flows in you

I first heard this song my sophomore year of high school. I sat and listened to it over and over again, completely entranced. I wept, and I did not know why. I captivated me, and filled a cavity in my chest. I did not know what I was missing, but it filled me and captured my missing essence. I never learned the very end of it, even though I spent every lunch period in the room with a piano, desperately trying to fill myself with this music. I listened to it again today and realized that I had filled that void with love. With improv, with friends, with art, with music, and with you, my dear.  And now most of that is gone. And so once again I fill my void with this song. Its different now, but my tears are the same, while the loss is greater, and I feel my blood trying to escape my veins.